Looking back over my life that seems very true. As a boy your mom showers you, dresses you, makes your lunch and makes you brush your teeth. Some years later other women come along and take their place in your life. I smoked three packs a day before prison. Once in prison, I then smoked a box of TOP hand-rolled, non-filters a day. One day I had enough and decided to quit. That lasted a week and I was smoking again.
I had to come from a different angle, so I thought of my daughter. She will be 20 when I get out. I want to set a good example and I also want to enjoy a long life with her and all the people I love. With that in mind, I quit on her birthday. August, 2010.
I took that promise serious and have not had a smoke since.
Now, I enjoy visits from the woman who rocks my world. I don't need someone to tell me to shower and brush my teeth. But I do like it when this special little lady tells m she loves me and that I complete her.
When you think about it, there is no physical contact in a relationship over a fence. What you have is much deeper. Our minds work together. Our souls and hearts grow together because that's what we have. Men tend to come at these things from a physical angle and that was me at one time. This is the first time I truly made my lady my best friend. Learned to appreciate her for the wonderful person she is and took the time to learn to love and enjoy everything she has to offer. If more men would take the time to do just this, the rate of failed relationships would change drastically.
I'm currently in the best relationship I have ever had. It's based solely on a friendship and love I have for a woman who loves me for me.
When you can communicate your deepest feelings of love, hurt, anger, disappointment and shame over a fence and to someone hundreds of miles away you have reached another level of your relationship.
All my life I have looked out for me. Dealing people the hand that suited me best. These days I'm living life and doing time so I can come home and rest my head on my lady's pillow.
They open the gate and I walk into a visiting area and my lady stands. I walk to her and put my arms around her. The world stops. I'm 15 again and it's just the two of us. Nothing else exists. I smile. I have the great woman who when she stands beside me, makes me a great man. Happy Valentine's Day, my lady. Forever and a night, your man
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I guess I need to get in the habit of writing my man again because we hardly even speak unless it's about our kid :( I love what you have with your lady. It really is pure and true. But look out when you get out, man. Because: That Ass. No disrespect intended.
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