I'm not sure what today holds for me, but I'm ready.
Today, I'm headed to the law library to get a motion to once again file in the courts asking why they haven't ruled on my previous motion yet. A 3.850 motion that was filed two years ago in April.
My class song was the Smashing Pumpkins. Had I graduated with my class. I did not. However, I did go back and catch the G.E.D. wagon about two years later. So, here I am...once again looking toward the future. My future.
I had to decide one day that at the least I wanted my G.E.D. The rest of my brothers and sisters all graduated. So I went in partially to make my momma proud. Then look where I wound up.
Today, I am seeking freedom for everyone who loves me. Not to mention myself.
However, I called mom the other day.
She asked me to be home in time for my little sisters wedding. Well, my sisters wedding is in one year. I still have five years left. You do the math. Only way I can possibly make that is if I can get the courts off their ass. Which means I will have to get off mine. And, so I did.
On June 18, 2012, I filed a motion to hear and rule. Asking the courts to please rule on a motion I originally filed on April 12, 2011. Today I filed another motion on my last motion to rule on the original motion.
Did I just lose you? Yeah. Some days I'm lost myself. I came into prison having no clue what a "motion" was. I had no idea what an "evidential" hearing was for. Now, I'm well-schooled in the appeals process. And all the legal jargon surrounding it. Only time will tell if I'll make it to my sisters wedding. However, by then I may be a tattooing lawyer. I'll most certainly be a heavily tattooed baker and jolly pop manufacturer.
Mom, I don't know if I'll be home in a year. That's out of my control. But, just like I went back and got my G.E.D. I'm also going to fight for my freedom. Either way I know you will be proud of me.
These days my fighting has mostly turned to noble ventures. I could go lay back and do nothing. Just accept what life offers me. You raised me better than that. Have I told you that lately?
This is my call home to tell you that the older I get the smarter you get. You told me as a kid that I could become whatever I wanted to be. Right now today I'm just ready to be free again. I'm looking for my second chance in life.
I hope that I didn't cash that option in already. I know I've burned some bridges, and I hope none was my exit. For now I'll just keep cruisin' along.
3 comments:
This was a hard post to type up! My face is sticky from warm, wet tears.
"I'm not sure what today holds for me, but I'm ready." I am so blessed to KNOW YOU, and know how true that is!
You are in my prayers every day. You know that. I am eager to hear the follow up to this. You know that too.
Way to be strong every single day. I am proud of you. Keep fighting! I will have that welcome home party ready for you!
i'm also eager to hear the follow up of this. i dreamt two nights ago that hugh and i showed up at the house mom rented in hawaii and that you were there! it was a big glorious surprise!
love you, Michael.
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