Who Are You?

Water takes the path of least resistance.

(Ausable River Morning East Branch from Michigan Paddlesports Directory)

Many things in life do the same.  People, for instance, many times choose the easy route.  And...many times you are back at a later date paying the price.

Buying the car with the four-cylinder as opposed to the supercharger, which can be a nice choice. Don't expect me to do that, but it's a wise choice.  You'll save at the pump.  Buying things at thrift stores or bargain houses can save you money as opposed to designer labels.  Again, don't expect me to follow those guidelines.  However...don't cut corners on important things.  Spend extra for the good tires on your car.  Cutting corners at the tire shop is about as wise as buying birth control off the expired, discount rack.  Come on...you know some jackass totally does this.

Looking back over my life, I realize I cut a lot of corners.  I cut corners at work, at home, and in my relationships.  I'm at a place in my life where I have an opportunity to fix this.  So, today I'm thinking about water.  How can I stand strong under opposition?

So, I'm in prison.  I love the people who say I'll be back.  Thank you!  You are my driving force.  And no...I won't be back.

I got married at the ripe old age of 19 years old.  Yes, I am now divorced.  Does that mean I'll marry and divorce again?  No.  I'm not 19 anymore.  When I choose to marry again, it will be forever.  Yeah, I know I preached about choosing each other over each day.  And you should.  But if that's working out for you, why not make it official?  I'm just saying...

When I was on the street I used a lot of drugs.  I have been clean for over three years now.  Life gets me high now.  Laughing, crying, being happy, or even sad...people, I feel.  I don't need drugs to hide behind.  I'm facing my fears, I battle my demons every day.  I don't feel the need to run, or numb myself anymore.  But again...I like the person who is waiting for me to fail.

These days I love a challenge.  You tell me I can't do something...watch me!  They can't hold me here forever.  I'll be back.  This time I won't be cutting corners.  No path of the least resistance for me.  Prison has taught me to be ALL-IN.  Prison is a large helping of shit every day.  Never fails.  Same old shit, different day.

Question is ~ what will you do with what you are given?

I don't like being here.  But, I look at my family.  If statistics say one of us had to come here, I'm the one.  I don't see any other member of my family being able to do this.  Well, Ester could, but she's just as crazy as me.  Well, probably not anymore.  I was half-way sane before prison.  These days I have no filter.  I'll tell you just how I feel.  I have no problem telling you "no" and meaning it.  Bottom line...don't tread on me.

If you're looking for the path of least resistance, don't come down my street.  School of hard-knocks and a brick wall are what you'll hit.  Honestly, I want you to have good tires on your car and birth control that works.  I may be an idiot, but I'll never be a hater.  I will never forget that a woman scorned is impossible to live with.  Either don't scorn her, or don't get married.

Recovering drug addicts should not be around drugs.  Nor should you hide the fact that you are recovering.  Let people know.  Good people will step up to help you.  Haters will do what they do best. 

I have a plan for never coming back to prison...I'm gonna find a hater and marry her.  Nah...I couldn't choose a hater over and over again each day.  No, the real changes have to take place within ourselves.  That is the only way they will stick.

I think shallow people cut corners, take the easy route, and never understand what it means to be tried by fire. I need rock solid people.  The ones that when the going gets tough, they get going.  Who are you?  When you see the opposition rise up, do you throw a fist in the air, or do you sit down?

I need to go...slip into my Diesel jeans, fire up my Dodge Challenger with the Hemi V-8 and Pirelli tires.

(2011 Dodge Challenger)

Then I'm off to pick up my supermodel girl.  We have dinner reservations.

Don't hate!!  You know I love you. 

~The Hooligan~

P.S.  Where's the discount rack at anyways?  I need to get some birth control.

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